a few weeks ago, i had a moment when i did something so much like mummy that i saw her very clearly in myself. something simple delighted me and i caught myself laughing out loud. i can't even remember what it was that amused me. it wasn't anything monumental, it was just an every day simple thing.

i laughed her laugh and sighed her sigh i and was taken aback by how much of her i heard in my own voice.

i had a rough time last week on the anniversary of her sickness. and, again, i was taken aback. because i was trying to remember where i was a year ago on the 4th. and i pictured myself rushing to d.c....but that was two years ago. it feels so fresh, but time is passing.

this morning, when i woke up, i sat up and took a really close look at a picture that sits on my nightstand. i see it every day, but i realized i haven't really looked at it for a long time. it's my grandparents...gogo and wowo. and wowo has mummy's face and her eyes. i love looking at it.

i see her in wowo. and in missy and liam and seamus.

genetics are marvelous. seeing her in them is really remarkable.

even more remarkable is hearing her in seamus, liam and missy moo's laughs and sighs of contentment.