the end of this blog is the beginning.
and i am learning each day that there is no end.
blame is a slippery thing. i blame nicotine. mom blamed herself and her "distaste for doctors in anything other than a social setting." cancer is incredibly beatable. some is preventable. some is not.
hedge your bets.
 if you smoke...try to quit. it's really hard. the tobacco industry has designed it that way. wear sunscreen. eat vegetables. see your doctor. mom quit smoking over seventeen years ago. early detection saves lives. it could have saved mummy.

Monday, July 16, 2007

the hardest part of the day

i woke up this morning and i thought "i just can't do it." i just cant come up with enough strength to function today.

but i had so much to do.

so i took a shower, dried my hair and drove to the office. i parked at the lot at the end of the street instead of in my usual lot three blocks away.

i figured i'd go in, do the things that i needed to do and then let people know that i wasn't feeling well and go back home.

my 10:00 meeting was moved to 11:00. then at 11:00 it was moved to 2:00. and before i knew it, i was in the thick of things. functioning. not brilliantly. but certainly more than adequately.

i was still tired. depressed, really. but i realized that the hardest part of my day had already passed....when i got out of bed.

tomorrow i will try to "rise and shine." like she used to say....
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